There are so many good times I've had with Steven, and they all seem to stand out now that he's gone. But I know each of these moments will provide me the chance to remember what a beautiful life he lived, and how much he was a part of our lives.

Steven was the perfect addition to our family activities, especially since he single-handedly prepared the last two holiday feasts as our new in-house gourmet chef. Steven had a way of taking charge that gave the rest of us – Mom, Dad, Cindy, my husband Dennis and I – the chance to sit back, relax and taste a full table of lip-smacking dishes he prepared. I will especially miss our after-dinner moments on the couch, where the six of us would watch videos and open gifts to complete the night. I will always remember when Denny and Steven went to Blockbuster to pick out a good family movie and came back with Shiri, the violent yet entertaining Korean blockbuster hit.

There were so many good times when Dennis and I just enjoyed being with Cindy and Steven, but some of the moments I will hold on to the most are the conversations we had when he was sick and battling lymphoma. Just three weeks before he passed away, we visited him on a Friday night, and Steven sat and told us how he had really found God in all that was happening. The words he shared stick vividly in my mind: "I know God can take away all of this (cancer) in two days, but no matter what the outcome, I know where I'm going." I believe that right around that time, Steven found comfort in knowing he was not alone. Steve had clearly found peace in God; he no longer feared death. I take solace in knowing that Steven understood that God was by his side.

While keeping Steven company in his last weeks, he asked what was going on with me. I was touched that he was interested in my life, despite being at the hospital and struggling with nausea and fevers. I shared and he empathized. He said to me, "That's so tough, Wendy. I feel for you." I remember thinking both how silly I felt sharing my problems and how privileged I was to get his advice. That was my last conversation with him.

I will always remember his generous spirit and his brotherly love. He was always eager to spend time with us and we loved that he was a part of our family. We are crushed at the thought of no longer having his company, but are blessed to have had him in our lives.

Steven, we miss you.

-Wendy and Dennis Chang

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